Reflection
I am tired.
Sometimes I think others are always at the top. That things are easier for them, that life flows more smoothly. And I am just collecting stones along the road: heavier and heavier, more and more exhausting. It would be so good if it could finally feel light.
At times I doubt. Myself, my path, whether all this struggle even makes sense. Am I enough? Am I going in the right direction?
Then I remember that burdens don’t have to be carried forever. I am allowed to stop for a moment. To take off my shoes, look into the bag, pull out the heavy stones. To look at them again, understand why they ended up there — and then put them down.
And the bigger stones? Those require a companion. Someone who helps, who is there when it’s no longer possible alone. Someone who has already walked that road and built signposts, benches, or bridges for others from their own stones.
I know I’m not alone in this. And you are not alone either. We have all carried burdens before. But we don’t have to carry all of them forever.
Sometimes you have to stop in order to move forward more lightly. You can choose which bridge you cross, how long you pause at the railing. You can decide whether to cross or turn back, whether to throw the unnecessary weight into the water or carry it to the other side. Maybe you haven’t even looked yet at what you’ve been carrying all this time.
You know, I keep walking — alongside my uncertainty, my doubts, my fears.
Because what I know for sure now is this: I can throw my biggest stone into the riverbed from the bridge you built.
~ Dajbukát Ildikó
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