Even angels grow tired
You don’t even see how much you have already done for others.
How many years have you been serving the people around you?
You keep giving of yourself — sometimes quietly, sometimes loudly — yet you continue patiently, because there is that feeling inside you that you want to do it for them, so that life may be easier for them.
You always hope that maybe now everything will change.
You look for the fault in yourself — am I not doing enough? I should give more.
Others have it harder, you say… and so you take on even more tasks and burdens, because you love your family, your parents, your children, your siblings, your friends. You think it is your duty.
Then one day, something changes.
The joy of helping disappears.
You no longer want to listen.
You begin to withdraw from those who constantly complain.
You feel guilty because you neglect your partner and can’t wait to fall asleep at night.
You no longer want to carry everyone else’s problems.
All you feel is exhaustion and weakness.
You avoid home. You don’t answer the phone. You stop calling your parents every day.
Do not blame yourself. Nothing is wrong with you.
Something beautiful has happened: you finally noticed yourself in your own story.
You are finally feeling again. Fatigue. Anger. Stress. Pain. Disappointment. Yes — you are finally feeling.
Because while you tried to save everyone else, you didn’t notice that you were slowly giving yourself away.
When was the last time you chose something that brought you joy?
When did your wishes come before obligations, chores, family conflicts and others’ expectations?
Everything runs on your time, your strength, your energy.
And your strength is running out.
You want peace instead. Lightness. Happiness.
You don’t want to feel this heaviness — yet I tell you again: finally, you are feeling.
And I rejoice — because I know this means you are ready.
Your time has come to return to the Source, to remember the unity of spirit, soul and body. Time disappears. Space dissolves. You float in a familiar feeling — and you remember.
This is what you have always searched for.
This is why you carried everything for so long.
You are next now.
It has always been about you.
Do you feel the tingling within you, earth-born angel?
This is the sign. The guidance. The certainty.
All you need is to allow yourself to be reborn in the healing touch of spirit.
With the colour of love, I write the date into the calendar — the day you come.
You arrive to me.
And you return home — to yourself.
With infinite love,
Ildikó
Spirit touch healing – the healing touch of spirit
